“Your life is like a river. If you’re aiming for a goal that isn't your destiny, you will always be swimming against the current. Young Gandhi wants to be a stock car racer? Not gonna happen. Little Anne Frank wants to be a high school teacher? Tough Anne. That's not your destiny. But you will go on to move the hearts and minds of millions. Find out what your destiny is and the river will carry you. Sometimes events in life give an individual clues as to where their destiny lies." - Lyn Cassady, The Men Who Stare at Goats
It's not often that a move surprises you with a kernel of wisdom. At least, not often for me. The last film that did that was The Hours, when Virginia Woolf tells her husband, "You can not find peace by avoiding life, Leonard."
The quote from …Goats strikes a chord with me. The last six years I've been floundering without direction, fighting against something I didn't understand. I moved to Austin in search of something that is not here, when what I needed was always a part of my being. The clues have been there, I've seen them, acknowledged them, yet consistently I find myself turning in another direction. I wanted an easier road to follow, but it's my destiny to take Frosts' road less travelled by.
Blogging helps me find the path. It illuminates the way, guiding me toward my true destiny. I know it will be a struggle, that the journey will be hard, but the destination may prove worth the hardship and heartbreak.
My destiny is to write, to give voice to all the thoughts and ideas which fill my mind. I have to keep reminding myself to let the river carry me where I must go.
My thoughts and opinions on the world and events that affect me, my friends, and total strangers. I can get rather political, but hate that my life as a gay man living with HIV has to be political.
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